WHAT YOU WANT I AIN’T GOT IT

I’M SORRY THAT I’M WRITING THIS INSTEAD OF DOING WHAT I THINK I SHOULD BE DOING BUT AVOIDING. I'M WORRIED I HAVE ADHD AND WILL GET ADDICTED TO ADDERALL, BUT MAYBE A DRUG ADDICTION WOULD HELP WITH THE PROCRASTINATION EITHER BY DOING THE TASK OR FORGETTING ABOUT IT BY BEING HIGH. I HATE SUNSETS AND I HATE THE STARS. WE’RE ALL GOING TO DIE! WOULDN’T THAT BE GREAT, WOULDN'T PROCRASTINATE ANYMORE BECAUSE WE WOULD BE DEAD. STUFFED ANIMALS ARE BETTER FRIENDS THAN EXES, THEY DON'T LEAVE MY BED, AND THEY DON'T MIND IF I PROCRASTINATE ON A PICNIC DATE OR GET MAD WHEN I FORGET TO TEXT. I'M BUSY, I'M PROCRASTINATING. BOOKING HOTEL ROOMS FOR ONE NIGHT ONLY AS A TREAT, MAYBE A DIFFERENT BED WILL HAVE ME WAKE UP ON THE RIGHT SIDE OF THE BED, THE SIDE THAT'S PRODUCTIVE, WHATEVER THAT MEANS. I'M PRETENDING TO BE PRODUCTIVE (PTBP) MAYBE THIS POEM IS WHAT I'M MEANT TO BE DOING, MAYBE THIS LIFE, MAYBE THIS, MAYBE THAT. I'M NOT SORRY.