another poem about my ex girlfriend (gggec)
I’m losing my mind! I am actively regressing! I haven’t cried about my ex girlfriend since I was so fucked up I tried to kill myself! and now here I am realizing I’ll never really know know-know-know know-know-know what she looks like today unless she updates her Venmo profile picture! I have her blocked everywhere else but somehow Venmo refuses to let her slip out of my memory forever! I swear the fucking social media money transferring app never lets me let her go and when I’m sad I look at the Venmo profile and I see her photo with the yellow ruffle top and the pink jeans and the winged eyeliner and I cry! I fucking cry! 100 gecs are singing about trying on your partner’s lipstick and I cry more because we broke up before we could do that! I wonder if you wear lipstick I wonder if you share it with your new girlfriend I wonder I wonder I wonder but I’ll never really know know-know-know know-know-know because she doesn’t care! she doesn’t want to talk to me! and I don’t even really want to talk to her except for the God damn steroids in my body and the 100 gecs in my ears and I don’t think I’ll forget! I don’t think I’ll forget her! I don’t think I will!
Erica Leslie Weidner is based, in New Jersey, and based in New Jersey. She is the founder and editor-in-chief of underscore_magazine. Spotify Wrapped recently revealed that Erica got a little too into 100 gecs this year.